Well, after mulling around all day with nothing else on my mind, i decided to do, yes, another poem.

Poem – Love Crazy

I dont know what you want,
or how i should act around you,
i never know what to say,
or what i should do,
I never know whether to smile,
or try to play it cool,
but whatever choice i make,
i always end up the fool,
i dont know why i do it,
do it to myself,
but no matter how much it try,
i cant put these feelings on the shelf,
its strange to say i know,
but i have to get it in the air,
i adore you more than life,
and it drives me to despair,
dreams can only go so far,
to suffice the desire and pain,
i love you more than life itself,
and its driving me insane…

Sam Marsh (C)

If you like it, good, if not…. I dont really care right now.

Urgh…

Well, after getting absolutely hammered last night and blown out supremely by Larrissa, i decided to ditch the party early and come home. Feeling the martyr and all. But i was pissed and pissed off, she was being such a cow with me from the word go last night, everything i said to her was greeted with a sneer, its like she was telling me to piss off and never speak to her again, but if thats the case why ask me to come out!

I felt sorry for Nikki for leaving early, but at the same time i had to go. I walked up behind Larissa an Han an put my arms round em an said ‘alright you lovely ladies’ messing around, and larissa grabbed my fucking fingers an tried to break em like i was raping her! WTF is that feminist paranoia shit. Im totally through with this bullshit now, i thought she was worth the hassle, but last night was a cold hard slap from the hands of reality.

Well, this week has been boring so far, apart from today. Was up till 1am revising PERL because i had a 9am test, went in, got the questions did em, saved em to my USB drive an then i said ‘right im done, can i demonstrate’ an he said ‘Oh, i see you have a USB, you cant use them, its cheating, you have 0′. I was furious to say the least. Incensed perhaps. I said to him ‘you didnt say we couldnt, its open book so i can hardly cheat, and i was backing it up onto it because there was a power cut so i didnt want to lose my worj’, so he started back tracking, and now apparently i have to go in on Monday. No chance im doing it again, im not doing 2 LEGITAMATE tests because he messed up.

Also, i wrote a new poem, woo :

What do you do when you realise your dreams?
When everything you ever wanted is as it seems,
you have the job, the comfortable life,
you have the money, the beautiful wife,
Everything is happy, sorted and understood,
You never thought anything could feel this good,
Everything seems to fit together, like a giant jigsaw,
Like your dream was covered in ice, but now its time to thaw,
As the sunsets over the houses afar,
no words can this memory a-scar.

Sam Marsh 2006(c)

Its not about anything really, just …. wrote it.

Adios, Mambo.

Evenin all,

Just thought i’d blog while i have the opportunity. Not much has gone on really this week. Went to paparazzi on thursday which was nothing special but oh well. Then on Friday we went to see the Ordinary boys at the Apollo, which was a fucking class night, if i do say so myself. They are awesome live, and some of their soon to be released stuff sounds amazing. Funny thing though, me Pikey and one the girls he knows went, and pikey drove. When we got there, Pikey somehow managed to lock his keys in his car, with the interior light on. Which was hilarious. So we sat around for an hour trying to figure a way to fix it, and eventually he had to go back to irwell in a taxi, get his spare key, get a taxi back and unlock his car, which took an hour, leaving me with his very fit friend.Which made me smile …..

Saturday was a boring day, got finally attacked by freshers flu. Ended up going home for an indian for me mam’s birthday, and doing….nothing after. Yawn.

Sunday, i got up, watched TV all day, watched the NL1 final, had sunday dinner, watched NFL and then came back to irwell to do what we do best. If you know me you know what that is. Play on playa!

Mambo.

Well, tueday came and went, and, nothing spectacular happened.

This morning i woke up angrily, due to the fact i was having the greatest dream of all. I was going out with a girl who ive fancied for years now, Larissa, and it was just…perfect, words cannot desribe.Until i woke up and realised it was all fake, which realllllllly pissed me off. If only dreams could come true, i’d be the happiest man alive, so much so i decided to write another poem :-

Fake Dreams by Sam Marsh

I Had one of those horrible dreams last night,
where in your own little mind everything seems right,
everything was ok, i had the girl of my dreams,
but as we all know, it aint always as it seems,
it was all going so well, we were about to kiss,
then all of a sudden, something seemed a-miss,
a buzzing noise, in my perfect world,
then my eyes opened wide and my dreams unfurled,
it was all a dream, but it felt so real,
the cold light of the morning hit me like steel,
no girl of my dreams, it was all a fake,
getting angry in the mornings, it so hard to take,
I wish we could go there, everyday,
living the dream, where everything is ok.

Sam Marsh 06 (c)

Hope you all enjoy it. Im just sitting here, pretty wet after walking home from a HCI lecture. Fun eh. We have the newspaper meeting tonight so hopefully that will take my mind off things!

Regards as always,

Sam

What a day. Uni at 9am till 11, which sucked because i was so fucking tired and it was raining! Sucks.

Walked home in the pissing down rain and chilled out for a bit, before heading into town with Gaz to get some stuff for my ma’s birthday! Which was….a mission lol. Asking the woman in boots for Dermatalogica and her pointing me repeatadly to the wrong FUCKING STUFF! Which wound me up. We also saw all the moshers queuing up outside HMV for some goth band signing their albums. Tossers.

Ended up in Lloyds for a few beers where the barmaid kept harassing me, sure he was coming onto me, where we concocted the idea that we should go out to Tiger Tiger. Good plan. So we got some cheap and nasty Vodka, got pissed up in my room with Enforcer and Alan, and headed to Tiger. Got there, massive queue, turned away because it was full to capacity. Shit. So we went to Pure, and actually had an alright night. Bit quiet in there, but more than enough totty to keep us entertained.Me and gaz went on the pulling mission and failed miserably, after spending nearly an hour chatting up these 2 chinese birds lol.

Ended up waking up at 9am in a shirt covered in burger sauce from the Van outside lol. What a day, the stuff of dreams.

Ok, well the weekend is nearly over, and having done a sum total of fuck all this weekend, i thought i should tell you about it!

Friday night stayed in doing nothing but watching the rugby because Ste and tony where in London on some Vodafone award ceremony. Saturday night was spent at Ste’s trying to figure out how the hell to play American Football on NFL Madde 07, and sunday, well sunday was a bit of a bummer. Found out one of my friends mums had died, which put a dampener on the day, and having trekked all the way back to uni, i found out i’d left my bloody washing at home. Oh well.