Well, what a crazy night. Firstly, we ended up sat at the back of the Pav; Conor, Joe, Matt and Me, drinking straight JD from a bottle looking at the stars lol Then Hannah rang me and told me she was coming after all, so i went to meet her. As we were walking down, i see the boys with Gally and a few birds, and one of matts old mates. Happy days. So we all went back to the house, and had a ROYAL pissup. At least 4 bottles of JD, Vodka, Buckfast etc got drank in 2 hours. Great tunes aswell hah Was a crazy night. Hannah ended up sleeping at mine, and i woke up with the worst headache in the HISTORY of man, dear god it felt like my brain was pushing against my skull, and Hannah, being a woman, would NOT shut up. Arrrrrrgghhhh. I managed to get rid of her about 10am, and finally got some sleep. Woke up at 6pm, and we’re off to the Pav again after ive got some painkillers and coke down me! Good times boys and girls.

Well, im so bored that exams have finished and im not working. All we’ve been doing is dossing around on the field day after day lol Brannigans on Saturday with the house 36 boyo’s and Hannah and her mates, then back to ours to get the party started heh. Also been talking to Shaun, the guy who im living with at intel trying to sort out what we’re doing RE: Sky, Interweb connection etc. Its a real hassle moving house!

Roll on Saturday. Fun fun fun.

Thank god, no more exams! So happy. Hannahs coming down at the weekend, not seen her in yeeeeears so she is getting introduced to the Irwell lifestyle! Also arranged to go down to Reading to meet with Shaun and sort out houses and stuff.

Pretty random poem, but i was bored.

How?

What do you hold onto, when the worlds fallin down,
How do you make anyone smile when you have a tattooed frown?
How can you stay positive and upbeat about life,
when all around nothing good happens, only suffering and strife,
what do you cling to, when all your hopes and dreams are crushed?
what do you reach to, the knife or the pen, when you are pushed?
How do you deal with the loss, of someone close to you?
How do you believe in a god when all the pain around is in clear view?
How can there be justice, how can there be peace?
How can there be happyness when evils never cease?
How do you ‘keep your chin up’, when your work is never done,
How can you chill out when your working on the sun?

Sam Marsh 2007 (c)

Well, after coming downstairs yesterday to the smell of burnt PCB, i found out the heatsink on my GeForce 6600GT had died. Meaning it was running at 100oC, frigging hot in other words. I dug a few fans out and brought it down to 70oC, which is fine. This morning, i turn my PC on, and the card is dead. It looks like that the RAM chips have cracked due to over expansion / contraction due to cooling / heating of them rapidly. So, naturally i was fecked off. Ive bought myself a new Radeon Ati X1650 pro, which is a verrrrrry good card for 50 quid, aswell as a new Zalman 20 quid heatsink. Everything is costing me bloody money!

New poem for you all. Normally i dont name my inspirations explicitly, but this one is about Emma.

Tell Me Tonight

The Head Cant Feel What The Heart Does,
The Head cant understand the pain,
The Head doesnt understand why i miss us,
And That i would never do it again,
The head is far too logical, the hearts dramatics,
Its either one or the other, never a mix,
Somewhere in beetween is nothing but a lie,
No matter how much i want it, how hard i try,
I dont know what i was thinking, the thoughts in my mind,
I know ive made a mistake but the solutions hard to find,
How do i put it right, what can i do now,
Lying in my bed, swimming in my thoughts thinking how,
What can i do, to put this thing right,
What can i do now, on this dark and lonely night,
How can i make it up to you, undo all the history,
How can i figure out what happened, whys it all a mystery,
I dont understand the decisions i make, and why i run away,
Whenever it gets too close, too real, i think of other ways,
Whenever it gets too happy, too normal and cheery,
I always find ways to mess it up and make it dreary,
I dont know why im writing this, and what i want to achieve,
Maybe its to lift this weight off my shoulders, to help me breathe,
Maybe its to lift off the burden on my heart,
To put things right i dont know where to start,
I dont know what to do, or how i should behave,
This relationship games turned my heart into a slave,
If theres any way i can fix things, or at least make it right,
Please tell me soon, please tell me tonight.

Sam Marsh 2007 (c)

Well what a crazy few days. Sunday night i didnt go to sleep because of needing to do more revision for our exam on Monday for AI, which was HARD, AS, NAILS for what its worth. Monday i crammed for Mobile Networking all day while Conor had 2 girls in his room asking me to come an talk with them, Grrrr lol Which i was dying to do! Went to 5th Ave at night for a few beers, and came back and actually got some sleep for once! Did the Mobile Networking exam today, 2 questions i battered, easy, 2 questions not so easy! I can relax for a day now anyway before Multimedia Tech on Friday. Wooo.